Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Love letter

(*This is from Mark to Samwise.*)

Sam, where do I start on how much I love you? You're so much a part of me now...

Before you came into my life, I never gave serious thought to having a younger lover, let alone actually want one. Yes, I've had a few one night stands with younger women before we met, but they never captured my interest and heart as effortlessly as you did, and still do each day we're together.

I cherish all the time we have together, all the laughter, the tears, and the arguments. Why? Because it's time I get to spend with the woman I love with all of my heart, the woman who has enough of me to tear me apart if she left.

It hurts me that should I get called up first, I'll be breaking your heart irreparably. I hope that when that time comes you trust Randy and Hunter enough to help you through. I know they aren't me, and will never be me, but I trust them with your happiness completely.

But that time is a long way off, thankfully. You don't need to worry about it now, and won't for many years to come.

Love you,

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Is it just me or has customer service in some stores gone down the drain?

Mom had to return a shirt at the local Kmart today, and had a really bad experience with the person at the customer service desk. Mom was at the head of the line, and a guy came over to the lottery area, and instead of waiting on Mom (the person who'd been there first), the salesperson went to help this arrogant jerkface for a good 10-15 minutes. The kicker is that when mom and I commented on this to her, she said that we should have said something and that it wasn't her job to keep an eye on who was first. Um, hel-lo, you jackwagon, you're in a service oriented business, you're expected to pay attention to who's standing in front of you, not ignore people and be rude to them! *sigh* We used to like that store, but it's been going downhill for the past 6-7 years now, and this... This was the icing on the cake for us not patronizing that store anymore. Our main reason is that we have better, much friendlier stores much closer to home (~10-15 minutes for Target, Kohl's, Micheal's and WalMart, compared to half an hour to 45 minutes for them).

To Jane in the Carlisle KMart: Your attitude towards us sucked. I'm not judging you outside of the store, just on how you treated us on this occasion. Please, don't expect your customers to speak up, just keep a freakin' eye on who's before whom. Thank you.

Saturday, November 27, 2010

Belated happy thanksgiving!

Happy Thanksgiving!

Okay, so I'm a day late, but oh well. Life happens, y'know?

My Thanksgiving was okay. Watched the Macy's Thanksgiving day Parade on CBS... I swear, they showed more   bleeping commercials and had more damn jawjacking than parade!!! Even when I was younger, maybe 10-12, they didn't have as much talking or as many commercials interupting the paradey goodness! What in God's name is this country coming to when we hear more about the Black Friday sales and which actor/actress is doing which show where than see the actual parade?!? Ugh! Just peeves me off...

Was crazy enough to brave the crowds at the Capital City Mall today... Never. Again. I don't like crowds to begin with, but this was freakin' NUTS!!! The few stores I went into *FYE, Spencer's, and Hot Topic* were fairly crowded, and nuts making. I don't handle crowds that well anyway, but Black Friday crowds... Ick.

Knitwise, I'm okay... Still working on the blankie for Sa5mwise, and I cast on for mom's shawlette yesterday. Doing a grain stitch with a moss stitch border with Lion Brand Wool-Ease in Deep Rose Heather. Gorgeous yarn, and it suits the project I'm using it in perfectly. The other projects I'm working on are pretty much on hiatus for the time being till I have those two done. *Or at least the blankie. Then I'll probably pick one of the UFO's up. I hope.*

Anyway, tata for now, kids. Knit safe.

Saturday, November 20, 2010


Why? Why do I bother to keep living? I look out at the world and see people laughing, emjoying being around each other... And I just sit back and observe while I knit... When anyone notices that my mask has slipped, they start asking questions when all I want is to be left alone. But do they care? No. Do I speak up? Nope. Too much of a damn coward like that.
Sometimes, I think the world would be better off without me around. It's not like anyone would notice that one more stupid fatass is gone, anyway...

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

FOs, UFOs, and projects in the plotting

Well... Finished the shawl I was knitting for Peggy Weakland on Sunday around 3pm. It's washed and already been given on Monday. Good news is that she loves it, and espescially the colour. She doesn't mind that it's wool, thankfully. And she can appreciate the hours that went into it, since she crocheted. Okay, so it was 25 years ago, and she admitted that she's forgotten how (Watch out, Peggy. That spurred the missionary crocheter to want to gift you yarn and a teach yourself to crochet book and hooks!*), but still. Crocheter.

Still have a couple several UFOs on the needles... A couple of socks, and a blankie for Sa5mwise... The blankie's the one I've been lugging to work to knit on when I have a chance to... Though, the poor thing did get a couple rows done at home before work today. Just trying to make it long enough to at least wrap around me or mom... with plenty of overlap. Preferably about a foot... If my sanity can hold out that long...
Still need to finish/work on the mate to my mom's sock... Poor things been languishing in knitting basket hell since I started the shawl... And the sock for me... Which I need to finish and knit up the mate to. *sigh*

Plotting a buttoned shawl bit for mom for work. Since she's a cashier in the commissary on the Army War College (aka Post), she tends to be stuck by the doors, which can be dang miserable in wintertime. *sigh* Fun, fun, fun. Oh well.

*Edited to correct name. *sigh* Happens, y'know...*

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Knee pain and knitting

46 more days til Christmas!

Have most of the shawl I've been working on done, thankfully. Bound off the one side I was adding to at work before shift got really going, and Judy was watching me weave in the end. Now, to find a crochet hook to pick up stitches on the other side! *bangs head on table* Worked a bit on the Grain Stitch sock I'm knitting up for myself. Lovely sock, and love the yarn I'm using. Pattern's by Edie Eckman.

And it's official: The weather in my neck of the woods is nuts. It's cold one week, warm the next. It's enough to make my right knee hurt like a pain in the arse. *sigh* Oh well. I'll live.

Monday, November 8, 2010

Countdown has begun

47 days til Christmas.

Yay. 47 days for me to finish the shawl in. 47 days to also finish mom's sock, find some more things for Sa5mwise and my folks... And my coworkers... In the immortal words of Cathy: ACK!
Though... Sitting in front of the computer waiting for pages to load or Sa5m to reply would be a good time to work on the handknits. Same goes for the car... Parents dragging me along into a store? Find a place to sit if I don't have money/my own shopping to do and knit. Should hopefully be managable. Now, to start doing Christmas Knitting through the year...

Saturday, October 30, 2010


Not much going on right now... Finished the main section on the prayer shawl I'm knitting, and working on the edging. Still have one of mom's socks to finish knitting. Cast on the first of a pair of socks for me. Though, with my luck, it'll fit mom. Again. Eh. Least she'll have a couple of pairs of hand knit socks. She'll like that. Still need to work on Sammi's blanket bit. That's been on the back burner since I started the shawl. (Thanks, Judy!) Eh. Happens.

Ciao for now, kids.

Sunday, October 24, 2010


Blegh. Hate feeling like I'm losing touch with the people I care about the most and feeling like noone even gives a schiesse about it... My bond with Dave died... Sometime last week, really only came back on Friday, and feels like it's starting to fizzle out again. I'm trying to keep it from unravelling, but... Ugh. I know he's fighting to keep it up on his end. I just hope that we don't lose this. I don't know what I'd do without him... And I keep having snippets of Darryl Worley's I Miss My Friend float through my head... I don't know if that's good or bad, but it's unnerving as heck...

Wednesday, October 20, 2010


My uncle Phil was diagnosed with prostate cancer (adenocarcinoma). It's already in his pelvis and spine... He's going to Sloan Kettering next Wednesday to find out how they're gonna treat it... Guess all I ask for right now is for y'all to keep him in your thoughts and prayers. Heck, have your church pray for him too, if it suits.

Worms and a Can Opener link


Here's the link to the Yarn Harlot post I was talking about. She makes one heckuva good point, folks!

Tuesday, October 19, 2010


I posted last night about one of my favorite rants being kids being messy and generally lacking in proper social graces. Well, here's my general rant!

I work as a custodian in a public school on the 2:30 to 11pm shift, and I've noticed that compared to this time last year, the kids are messier. I'm not talking a few pieces of paper and a desk or two out of line, I'm talking litter all over the floors, more pen/pencil marks and paper/eraser bits left on the desks, and the desks all out of whack from where I had them the night before to get my vaccuum through.

It seems that parents and teachers don't want to take responsibilty for properly molding theis generation into people who give a schiesse about keeping things neat. I've noticed that, except for maybe two or three teachers at work, ours think it's not their responsiblity to take a few minutes at the end of class to have the kids pick up the trash off the floor and straighten up the desks. Why? Probably because they think 'Oh, it's the custodian's job to do that.' Yes it is, but it's also common courtesy to leave it presentable for the next group of students coming into the classroom.

Also, since we've had the trailer classrooms added to our area to clean, we've had to rush through our other rooms to be able to get to them before 11 with enough time to clean them. So, we don't appreciate having to spend an extra half hour scrubbing every desk and straightening out the rows enough to manuver a vacuum through them. Of course, we usually wind up having to do that in several classrooms anyway.

And the kids running around in stores... Folks, the store employees aren't there to make sure little Johnny or little Jane doesn't get hurt. That is completely your responsiblity to keep an eye on your kids and keep them out of the other shoppers' way. Your baby crying? Find out why! They depend on you for everything, they aren't crying just for attention. Don't believe me? Read Steph's blog on the matter! It's in her September Archives, under Worms and a Can Opener.

Anyway, I could probably go on, but I'd just be repeating myself. And that can get kinda boring, y'know? I'll see y'all later, folks. Hopefully a lot s0oner than nearly a year, eh?

Monday, October 18, 2010

Holy cow...

Wow. I reeeeally need to update this poor blog more...

Hm. Nothing majorly important is going on in my daily life. Well, aside from the current crop of 6th graders bein' messy little buggers. But that's a rant for another day, trust me. And don't get me started on the trailers that currently house our foreign language and Health classes... Or the new Spanish and Health teachers... Those are definitely rants for another day.

Knitwise... I finally got around to teaching myself how to knit socks. Finished my first on Saturday, Hallelujah. And I'm currently working on several projects... One of which is a prayer shawl for one of the teaachers at work who recetnly lost her brother to cancer. Nasty schiesse, but he's no longer in pain, or on morphine. And he at least died at home. Yarn is Cascade 220 heathers, the purple one. Don't have the ballband in front of me to give you the exact colorway, but that happens. Darn gorgeous yarn, and it works up even better. And it's soft as heck!!!

Yet another is a blanket/shawl/lapblanket bit. Been working on that since... Hm. I don't remember, but I think it might've been sometime in May or April I cast that on. It's Threads & Loops yarn. Don't have the band in front of me, but I'm pretty certain it's the royal umber or jewel umber. Something like that. Lovely yarn, had the last skein pool rather odd, but I'm sure the person I'm knitting it for will like it.

Have a scarf in the works for me in Paton's Classic Wool, Jade Heather. God, that's gorgeous yarn, and so soft... Can't wait til I have it fully made up... May knit a hat to match. But all I know is I want to make sure this scarf is nice and long. I sadly have a bit of a thing for nice long scarves. They have to be almost as long as I am tall for me to be happy with it. Don't know why, but oh well.

Have tow pairs of mitlets (Mittens without the annoying over the fingers bit. At least that bit's annoying to me. I'm a diehard glove person.*) on the dpns for me and mom... They're in Amazing yarn. Think that's lion brand, but I could be wrong. (*That happens alot. I don't mind so much anymore.*) Lovely yarn, just have to finish knitting the mate to mine, and knit up both of mom's. Yes, I sadly have a bit of a problem with knitting commitment... *sigh* Oh well...

Well, until later, lovlies!!! (Hopefully not nearly a year later...*)